Autumn in my heart

Autumn in Malaysia? Yeah, Malaysia is always in super summer mood. Hot, humid and heavy rains. But, yes, autumn do happen here in Malaysia.

It had been the second week that the citizens of my hospital were forced to use the main gate as they closed the side gate that I commonly used. The main gate, being the main entrance of the hospital, is usually packed especially during the morning and the evening just after office hour. I was trying to avoid it by using the side gate, that only known by the regulars. Nevertheless, as said, no side gate anymore and the main gate is the way in. And because of this event, I realised that autumn do happen in Malaysia.

For anyone who are driving to UKMMC from Bandar Tun Razak, do take a moment and appreciate the driving along the road to the hospital. Especially at the International Youth Center road going to the hospital, the trees turned to the spirit of autumn. No...they are not dying, they are just fitting well to the mood of the week, as I like to put it.

Autumn, in my personal view, is a surreal loving season. I love the view of Autumn. The colours of the scenery changed to human. From the green and blue, to the shades of brown with the hue of yellow and red. The weather was airy cool with misty feeling. And people start to be more emotionally attached and "human". If people called summer as the season of fun, spring the season of love, autumn for me is the season of "emotional spirituality".

I was in the lovely UK and Paris last year during autumn, and I was indulge very much in the spirit of it. The colour was truly loveable. Brown and yellow, do not equal of end of life, yet more of a sign of maturity and forgiving, and appreciating the life Allah had given to us. As I stand between the trees, with my feet among the browny leaves, closing my eyes, engaging myself to the mist and the air, the heart started to be calm and melt to nothingness. The feeling was remarkable.

Yes...seeing the Malaysian version of autumn is not the same as it was in Paris. Yet...this "autumn" in Malaysia do help for me to reconnect to the feeling the season is. Driving through with the view of the very "limited" autumn of Malaysia, to me is a way of Allah calming the mind and pleasuring the heart.

Yes, it is slightly autumn here in my family as the our beloved Abah will be going through a major heart surgery soon. The emotions are surreal-like autumn always do-yet there are a wonderfully crafted beauty in the emotion it created.

Insyallah, Allah will guide us all and I pray that Abah will be fine soon.